So much for getting better
November 25, 2006 by Wendy Cooper
I haven’t blogged much lately for a couple of reasons and one has been that I have just been busy but the other one has been that I have had some serious meltdowns lately with the depression. Last Sunday was so bad that while I got in the van and went to Darren’s fundraiser, I could not go into the building and today I kind of exploded during a discussion on what to get some friends for Christmas because Jordon kept changing his mind on what to get people as he searched for the perfect gift. While most days are better, I keep being plunged into despair and anxiety other days. The good news is that they seem farther apart.
depression has been extremely bad for me these last couple of days as well, i really feel the need for a change of medication, but it’s really hard to keep hope alive when i’ve tried a few and i can’t beat the stupid hopelessness i feel, it truly feels like i’ll never be able to enjoy life
i’ll pray for you, please let me know if you have any major breakthroughs in your illness
Oh, Friday was a really bad day for my depression. The tape recorder in my head would not turn off all day. The message it played just made me feel worse and worse. After work, I crawled into the comfort of my bed and stayed there, hoping sleep and the darkness would turn off the noise of how awful I am. I think I will look into light theraphy.
Any suggestions for someone whose wife is getting really tired of his depression. It’s very hard for her.