I give up « Wendy Cooper’s Weblog

I give up

August 9, 2006 by Wendy Cooper

I am suspending and mothballing my weblog for the indefinite future. Life is totally overwhelming right now and the time that I spend posting and reading about things to spend needs to be spent on just functioning at a basic level.

It isn’t the blog that is causing the problem, today I decided that after several near serious accidents this summer that I am not even going to drive if Mark is in the car unless it is an emergency or until my doctor can figure out what is causing my lack of focus and ability to think.

Yes, life around home sucks. Jordon loves me but he is often bailing me out and dealing with the consequences for my actions. He supports me but you can imagine the strain when he wasn’t able to trust my thinking or actions anymore. It took some convincing to see a doctor which for right now, it feels as if I am getting worse. He is taking over a bunch of responsibilities for me and simplifying some others for me which is a big help.

In the past when I have gone through bad patches, I always think back and go, “never again” but sadly those weren’t bad patches but a pattern that has been getting worse the last couple of years. I’ll let you know when things change.

Posted in Blogging, Life Update, Personal | 19 Comments

19 Responses to “I give up”

on August 9, 2006 at 1:50 pm1 Linea

Will keep praying.
on August 9, 2006 at 1:53 pm2 Darryl

We have been there too. Hang in there - love you guys.
on August 9, 2006 at 1:53 pm3 Charlie

praying here as well…
on August 9, 2006 at 2:27 pm4 stephen shields

praying
on August 9, 2006 at 2:28 pm5 michael bells

will continue to pray
on August 9, 2006 at 2:49 pm6 kairos

Prayers from cyberspace. May God bless you and keep you…
on August 9, 2006 at 4:20 pm7 wilsonian

One more praying.
on August 9, 2006 at 4:39 pm8 david finch

You’ll be in our prayers.
on August 9, 2006 at 4:59 pm9 Jackie

Praying for you…hang in there!
on August 9, 2006 at 5:56 pm10 clifford

I’m praying…….
on August 9, 2006 at 8:51 pm11 Jadon

Whoa! Take care of yourself there, Wendy. It’s easy to let things go a bit when times are good, which can make health harder to sustain. Get well soon…

Definitely praying.
on August 9, 2006 at 9:34 pm12 Mark Bushor

Blessings on you. Blogging can fall by the wayside, self-care can’t. Praying for you too….

Mark Bushor
on August 11, 2006 at 6:54 pm13 rosydot

Wise decision. Praying for you, Jordon and Mark.
on August 13, 2006 at 9:33 pm14 Mike

Hang in there, Wendy.
on August 14, 2006 at 7:29 pm15 Dave King

Hugs and prayer.

- Peace
on August 14, 2006 at 11:06 pm16 cyndy

“Be still and know that I am God”… Print it in bold letters on a sheet of paper and tape it to your fridge… when life gets to be too much. Stop and give the issues to God and boldly ask him for whatever you need. And he is faithful to supply.
You are in my prayers, girl.
on August 19, 2006 at 3:57 am17 Pernell

Praying for you… and your family, Wendy.
on August 21, 2006 at 2:08 am18 Bene D

Praying Wendy, that the doc can find the right meds. And that friends that understand the bad patches will stay close.
on August 21, 2006 at 4:37 pm19 marnie

Wanted to comment on your update, but your comments for that post are off, so I’ll just comment here. I’m really wishing you the best in finding meds that will work for you. My depression/anxiety/panic has left me unable to function at times. I, too, have made very stupid decisions that only hours later I realize are stupid, but often it is too late to change my decisions/actions and thus live with the repercussions. I am currently off of my meds because I’m pregnant, and between the depression and the preggo hormones, I am functioning at about 20% of normal (where normal isn’t very good either). I guess I just want to say that you are not alone, that I hope you can find the right combo of meds and therapy to allow you to resume a life of happiness instead of frustration.