I am suspending and mothballing my weblog for the indefinite future. Life is totally overwhelming right now and the time that I spend posting and reading about things to spend needs to be spent on just functioning at a basic level.
It isn’t the blog that is causing the problem, today I decided that after several near serious accidents this summer that I am not even going to drive if Mark is in the car unless it is an emergency or until my doctor can figure out what is causing my lack of focus and ability to think.
Yes, life around home sucks. Jordon loves me but he is often bailing me out and dealing with the consequences for my actions. He supports me but you can imagine the strain when he wasn’t able to trust my thinking or actions anymore. It took some convincing to see a doctor which for right now, it feels as if I am getting worse. He is taking over a bunch of responsibilities for me and simplifying some others for me which is a big help.
In the past when I have gone through bad patches, I always think back and go, “never again” but sadly those weren’t bad patches but a pattern that has been getting worse the last couple of years. I’ll let you know when things change.
Will keep praying.
We have been there too. Hang in there – love you guys.
praying here as well…
praying
will continue to pray
Prayers from cyberspace. May God bless you and keep you…
One more praying.
You’ll be in our prayers.
Praying for you…hang in there!
I’m praying…….
Whoa! Take care of yourself there, Wendy. It’s easy to let things go a bit when times are good, which can make health harder to sustain. Get well soon…
Definitely praying.
Blessings on you. Blogging can fall by the wayside, self-care can’t. Praying for you too….
Mark Bushor
Wise decision. Praying for you, Jordon and Mark.
Hang in there, Wendy.
Hugs and prayer.
- Peace
“Be still and know that I am God”… Print it in bold letters on a sheet of paper and tape it to your fridge… when life gets to be too much. Stop and give the issues to God and boldly ask him for whatever you need. And he is faithful to supply.
You are in my prayers, girl.
Praying for you… and your family, Wendy.
Praying Wendy, that the doc can find the right meds. And that friends that understand the bad patches will stay close.
Wanted to comment on your update, but your comments for that post are off, so I’ll just comment here. I’m really wishing you the best in finding meds that will work for you. My depression/anxiety/panic has left me unable to function at times. I, too, have made very stupid decisions that only hours later I realize are stupid, but often it is too late to change my decisions/actions and thus live with the repercussions. I am currently off of my meds because I’m pregnant, and between the depression and the preggo hormones, I am functioning at about 20% of normal (where normal isn’t very good either). I guess I just want to say that you are not alone, that I hope you can find the right combo of meds and therapy to allow you to resume a life of happiness instead of frustration.